At seventeen, Trinity McCabe has already made enough mistakes to fill a lifetime. Especially the one where she got high, drove a car, and almost killed a dog. And then let her friend Aidan take the blame.
She’s clean now and desperate to fix the messes she’s made, but first she’s going to have to get out of her pajamas.
As Trinity struggles to stop sleepwalking through life, she faces the painful, tingling sensation of waking up. It’s sometimes embarrassing (she really didn’t want to have lunch with Aidan’s mom), sometimes terrifying (group therapy is beyond intimidating), and sometimes, amazingly enough, pretty romantic (who’d have though Aidan would be such a great kisser?)
Trin is lucky, though—luckier than she deserves, she’s sure—and she doesn’t travel this road alone. Her family, her therapist, and her new friends are all pulling for her. And it turns out, some of them have made pretty big mistakes, too.
But before she can embrace her new life completely, Trinity has to be forgiven by the one person who is holding out the hardest: herself. It’s not easy changing everything, especially when you don’t think you deserve a second chance. Trinity might make an even bigger mess of things before she figures that out.
When the smoke clears on her latest disaster, will anyone still be standing there?
"I always, always listen to music when I write. It’s partially so that I can drown out the sounds of Yo Gabba Gabba or the seventeenth marathon viewing of Howl’s Moving Castle or my husband’s Psych marathon. All cool, funny stuff, but you have to be in the mood to write!
What I usually do is come up with songs that are kind of character anthems. I try to write books that really heavily revolve around how the characters think/feel/act, and the music helps set that up. Forgiving Trinity was hard in that aspect because the characters changed so much from the beginning of the book to the end, and there was the way they saw themselves, which was so different from the way I saw them.
I’m going to share what 2 songs really hit home for me for each character. When we first meet Trinity, she’s a mess. She feels like she’s let everyone down, her self-esteem is out of whack. The song that really encapsulated that was:
· “The Weight of Lies” by the Avett Brothers
When we first meet Trinity, she’s a mess. She feels like she’s let everyone down, her self-esteem is out of whack. This song really encapsulated that feeling.
If you’re not a big Avett Brother’s fan…become one! Their songs are soulful and the lyrics are amazing. This particular song talks about how impossible it is to run from the lies you’ve told…wow does Trin get that!
· “The Dog Days Are Over” Florence and the Machine
By the time Trin is coming out as her own strong, crazy, amazing person, she knows how to kick it. She knows what’s important, she knows how to stand up for herself. Who better encapsulates those qualities than Florence and the Machine, I ask? No one!
The strength and courage of this song is a mainstay of Trin’s new character!
Ruth is Trinity’s best friend. But she’s not all she seems at first. When Trinity encounters her in class, her initial reaction is to brush her off and label her a dork. Ruth proves that she’s so much more than anyone expected.
· “Smile” by Lily Allen
This song always makes me think of Ruth because it seems so innocent if you don’t really pay attention to the lyrics. When you listen closer, you realize there’s this radically wicked subtext underneath. This makes me think of Ruth.
Lily’s song captures the same ruthful/brilliant dichotomy that defines Ruth.
· “Tire Swing” by Kimya Dawson
Ruth is a truly exceptional friend and person, but she has ideas about how things should be that don’t always make sense to Trin…or her brother, Christian. Kimya Dawson’s “Tire Swing” talks about the difference between what we might want and what our friends take from us. That can be seriously different.
This song is sweet and crazy complicated…just like Ruth!
Aidan seems to get the hero’s welcome back, as far as Trinity is concerned. He earned his pardon, and she kind of hates that. But there are secrets that Aidan isn’t read y to face, and Trinity will wind up helping him deal with them.
· “Welcome Home, Son” by Radical Face
This song speaks to the idea of home being a place of comfort, but also a place that can have really super confusing ramifications. Aidan isn’t completely comfortable at home, even though he wants to be, because he carries so much guilt on his shoulders.
This song is a beautiful tribute to the mixed beauty that usually defines coming home.
· “Sydney, I’ll Come Running” by Brett Dennan
Aidan wants to prove to Trinity that he’ll do anything for her, stand by her, help her when she needs…but it’s Aidan who winds up needing her as much as she ever needed him. And this song communicates this idea of loving/helping someone no matter what.
This song, besides being an amazingly gorgeous, upbeat, lyrically awesome song, hits home the idea of a love that reaches down to the very core of a person and keeps loyalty at the forefront."
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